I have been struggling the last few weeks, Eating unhealthy things and eating before bed. Its a complicated, but its all about a new relationship with food and letting go of old ones. My job is complicated and deals with people and systems. The system I am working with is unhealthy and wants me to step into the role of the rescuer, but doing so would not be healthy for me or them, but not being the savior during this time of learning a new food relationship has let me slip into old habits.

Unfortunately writing about it, or knowing about this is not enough to change it, because its about feelings.

I ran into a patient of Dr Cunduff yesterday, she had made progress in the beginning. but then when her insurance changed should could no longer go, and stopped making progress. It makes me afraid of the future and while I am determined to be successful at this, I am still afraid of failing.

To help I have am now taking 2.2mg of Saxenda