I think I need to add to this post the before pictures so you can see the dramatic change.

I need to put it hear so I am fully committed to those pictures not being the end of the story.

But I am ashamed, I am embarrassed.

I don’t like seeing those pictures or taking ownership that I have let myself get to this point. But I think I need too.

Even though I am the only person in the world who has access to the site today, I still don’t like the idea.

I will have to ask Jennifer to take the picture..

….. Started this post 11 hours ago, no picture. I have come to hate my body, there is nothing I like about it, not even my hair, can’t find a haircut I like and it won’t take die anymore. I need find something I like about my physical appearance. …. maybe tomorrow I can take that picture……